July 19

 I did a tarot reading today, in regards to my job transfer search. I got these cards: Nine of Wands (reversed), Temperance, and The World (reversed).

I had to do some research because there had to be something I'm not understanding. Glad I did. 

Nine of Wands, reversed: Worn out from challenges, but more challenges coming. Keep at it! Reversed suggests I am struggling towards my goal ( I am), and feel overwhelmed (also true). Also that I don't feel supported at work, or home (I'm not). That I need to push through this, because its temporary. I know this, but its nice to get that sympathetic pat on the shoulder. Thank you yarn kitty.

Temperance: This one I just looked in the little book, and it makes sense. If I need all my financial resources to make the move work, then exercise caution around spending money. The kitty doesn't drink all the water from the fishbowl, it only laps a little. I've been naughty about my spending, when I clamped down for a week I rebelled and bought goodies. 

The World, reversed: Incomplete, lack of closure. Ok, what am I lacking closure on? Well Terry would fit here. I've told him I'm moving, and he we both want to stay in contact. I haven't ended things with him. pause, heavy sigh. I don't want to end things with him, even though it Needs To Happen. I need to pull up my breeks and end it. We both string each other along. How can I move on, with a new relationship, when I have unfinished business with another man.